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CHAPTER XXVII - Here!

`It is a necessity in you?' he said.
'Yes!'
The moment she had admitted the necessity, she realized it vas a certain duplicity in herself. It was as if she had two ;elves : one, a new one, which belonged to Cipriano and to lamon, and which was her sensitive, desirous self: the other iard and finished, accomplished, belonging to her mother, her :hildren, England, her whole past. This old accomplished self was curiously invulnerable and insentient, curiously hard and free.' In it, she was an individual and her own mistress. The .)ther self was vulnerable, and organically connected with ::ipriano, even with Ramon and Teresa, and so was not `free' it all.
She was aware of a duality in herself, and she suffered from it. She could not definitely commit herself, either to the old way of life, or to the new. She reacted from both. The old was a prison, and she loathed it. But in the new way she was not her own mistress at all, and her egoistic will recoiled.
`That's just it!' she said. `It is a necessity in me, and you want to prevent me.'
`No! No!' said Ramon. `I hope not.'
`Yes! You put a weight on me, and paralyse me, to prevent me from going,' she said.
`We must not do that,' he said. `We must leave you, and not come near you for a time, if you feel it is so.'
`Why? Why can't you be friendly? Why can't you be with me in my going? Why can't you want me to go, since I must go?'
He looked at her with dispassionate eyes.
`I can't do that,' he said. `I don't believe in your going. It is a turning back: there is something renegade in it. - But we are all complicated. And if you feel you must go back for a time, go! It isn't terribly important. You have chosen, really. I am not afraid for you.'
It was a great relief to her to hear this: because she was terribly afraid for herself. She could never be sure, never be whole in her connection with Cipriano and Ramon. Yet she said, mocking slightly:
`Why should you be afraid for me?'
`Aren't you sometimes afraid for yourself?' he asked

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