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CHAPTER XVIII - Auto da Fe

men and women, or we are all lost. - We must pull ourselves together, hard.'
`But are you a man who needs a woman in his life?' she said.
`I am a man who yearns for the sensual fulfilment of my soul, Senora,' he said. `I am a man who has no belief in abnegation of the blood desires. I am a man who is always on the verge of taking wives and concubines to live with me, so deep is my desire for that fulfilment. Except that now I know that is useless - not momentarily useless, but in the long run - my ravishing a woman with hot desire. No matter how much she is in love with me and desires me to ravish her. It is no good, and the very inside of me knows it is no good. Wine, woman, and song - all that - all that game is up. Our insides won't really have it any more. Yet it is hard to pull ourselves together.'
`So that you really want a woman to be with you?' said Kate.
'Ah, Senora! If I could trust myself; and trust her! I am no longer a young man, who can afford to make mistakes. I am forty-two years old, and I am making my last - and perhaps in truth, my first great effort as a man. I hope I may perish before I make a big mistake.'
`Why should you make a mistake? You needn't?'
`I? It is very easy for me to make a mistake. Very easy, on the one hand, for me to become arrogant and a ravisher. And very easy, on the other hand, for me to deny myself, and make a sort of sacrifice of my life. Which is being ravished. Easy to let myself, in a certain sense, be ravished. I did it to a small degree even yesterday, with the Bishop of Guadalajara. And it is bad. If I had to end my life in a mistake, Senora, I had rather end it in being a ravisher, than in being ravished. As a hot ravisher, I can still slash and cut at the disease of the other thing, the horrible pandering and the desire men have to be ravished, the hateful, ignoble desire they have.'
`But why don't you do as you say, stick by the innermost soul that is in you, and meet a woman there, meet her, as you say, where your two souls coincide in their deepest desire? Not always that horrible unbalance that you call ravishing.'
`Why don't I? But which woman can I meet in the body, without that slow degradation of ravishing, or being ravished,

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