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Opinion-she knew-would say, that having chosen a position outside morality she had not half the case for broken-heartedness she would have had if Fort had been her husband. Opinion-she knew-would say she had no claim on him, and the sooner an illegal tie was broken, the better! But she felt fully as wretched as if she had been married. She had not wanted to be outside moralitynever in her life wanted to be that. She was like those who by confession shed their sins and start again with a clear conscience. She never meant to sin, just to love, and when she was in love, nothing else mattered for the moment. But, though a gambler, she had always so far paid up. Only, this time the stakes were the heaviest a woman can put down. It was her last throw; and she knew it. So long as a woman believed in her attraction, there was hope, even when the curtain fell on a love-affair! But for Leila the lamp of belief had suddenly gone out, and when this next curtain dropped she felt that she must sit in the dark until old age made her indifferent. And between forty-four and real old age a gulf is fixed. This was the first time a man had tired of her. Why! he had been tired before he began, or so she felt. In one swift moment as of a drowning person, she saw again all the passages of their companionship, knew with certainty that it had never been a genuine flame. Shame ran, consuming, in her veins. She buried her face in the cushions. That girl had possessed his real heart all the time. With a laugh she thought: `I put my money on the wrong horse; I ought to have backed Edward. I could have turned that poor monk's head. If only I had never seen Jimmy again; if I had torn his letter up, I could have made poor Edward love me!' Ifs! What folly! Things happened as they must! And, starting up, she began to roam the little room. Without Jimmy she would be wretched, with him she would be wretched tool `I can't bear to see his face,' she thought; `and I can't live here

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