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Mothers Cry

mustn't let mothers stand in the way of our principles but he said he had to think of his mother because when he was twenty-one-and that would be in a couple of months-he was to get some money his father left for him but his mother could stop him getting it. I didn't want to anyway but he said oh Beatty don't you love me if you love me you'll do as I want you to and I did love him mother oh I did. I thought I loved him more than the whole world. We went down this afternoon to get a license and on the way down we rented a furnished room and David bought me a wedding ring. We filled out the application and we got the license all right and then we had to wait to go into the place where they do the marrying and I noticed David was getting restless. I asked him what was the matter and he said I tell you what Beatty we don't really have to get married because I have some friends who got married a few weeks ago and I think they would let me have their wedding certificate and I could change the names with ink eradicator and I can show the certificate to my mother and then we needn't get married.
Then Beatty began to cry again and after she stopped she went on.
Oh mother Beatty said I was willing to give up my principles to help him but when he asked me to do that it was terrible. I felt so dirty and mean and petty. I would have been glad to suffer anything in the world for him if he had wanted me without going through the ceremony of marriage but he was too much of a coward to enter into a really free union and face his friends and his mother. And what he wanted me to do seemed so vile and so cheap and so common oh mother I just couldn't and the worst thing was that I thought I loved him so much that a love like that could never change and never die and right while I was sitting there mother it all