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myself and thinking of myself I almost forgot that it would be a baby a real person. I don't know how to explain only I just thought about it all happening and still being me the swellings and the kickings in my stomach and the soda and having to go to the toilet all the time and sewing clothes because it was nice to make little things but not really thinking about the baby being outside of me at all.
I got everything ready just like the doctor told me to all the things clean and boiled like he wanted and the old clean rags and all the things for the baby that mama and I had sewed and knitted and crocheted and the three dozen diapers I hemmed all by myself by hand. I felt just like a lump of lead and mama began staying with me all day long now so if anything happened she could run down to the drug store and telephone to the doctor and so she could send somebody to get Annie because Annie was going to help me afterwards until I could walk around again and Annie had helped mama when I was born and when Jamey was born.
One morning right after Frank left I got an awful stomach ache just like I ate something and it didn't agree with me. Mama said to wait awhile and see if another came. Then I felt sort of better and I tried to clear up a little but I got an awful stomach ache again. And then I got another one and pretty soon another one and I got sort of frightened. So mama sent Mrs. Henricks downstairs to telephone to the doctor and when she came back she sent her to fetch Annie. I was be ginning to cry a little and mama said now don't get scared this isn't the first baby born in the world and afterwards you'll forget all about it. About lunch time I thought I couldn't stand it any more and I kept hopping around sort of on one foot and on the other and I asked mama to please send for Frank but mama said we mustn't drag Frank away from the