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THE WALKYRIE

the seashore at Hendaye. This is the explanation, though not a justification, of this absurd plan: I believe I had unconsciously found a sombre and bitter joy in being, in my own eyes and in those of my friends, the Inconsolable, and I had ended by indulging in a sentimental fetishism which was neither reasonable nor generous. Perhaps it had some obscure connection with the ancient cult of the dead and the need of appeasing their shades, which is as old as human society. Perhaps my white flowers, my sacred images and my commemorative services were nothing but attenuated forms of very ancient sacrifices.
At first this sentimentality had been the quite natural expression of an immense sorrow; now it was no longer healthy. The living should live with the living and for the living, and if it is laudable and pious to respect the dead, it is cruel to offer them human sacrifices. Worried, torn by memory and tormented by the chimera of an impossible posthumous loyalty, I had tried to make of my second marriage as small an event as possible with the obscure and naive hope, no doubt, that the news, hushed, compressed into three words, would not penetrate as far as the dismal realms. For the same reasons, or rather the same superstitions, I refused under thin pretexts, to use the familiar 'tu' with my wife, though she wished it; I made her live in Neuilly in an apartment filled with memories of another woman, and when she tried to make my children hers, I rendered her attempted contacts with them more difficult by scruples and reservations which no reasonable being would have put in her way. But on this subject I was not a reasonable being.
The magic hold of the dead is strong and fearful. `Tel qu'en lui-meme enfin l'eternite le change,' the dead escape all accidents, temptations and errors. Like the King, the dead `can do no wrong'. For two years I had been shaping a superhuman figure, retouching memories of the past, orchestrating a funeral hymn. I committed the error of trying to associate with me in this cult the woman I now loved. She was willing, but she suffered from it. The servants and the children's nurse contradicted her decisions with the wishes of `Madame', and `Madame' was a beautiful, impalpable phantom. The transfer of authority was accomplished with difficulty. The cook, the chauffeur, the latter's wife whom the children called `Mammy Georges', stood upon privileges which they maintained they had received from the departed. I knew a long time later from Simone's confidences that during that first year she had been unhappy to the point

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