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`Beneath the sway of Mars condemned without reprieve,' and she would add: `Mars ... the God of War ... You see, darling, I had cause to be' afraid of him. . . .'
She who had formerly loved solitude and put up with simplicity, now revealed an appetite for luxury, for gowns and for jewels, a taste for dancing, for night clubs and for jazz, which perhaps was natural but which wounded the austere moralist that lurked deep within me. Observing her way of life I thought of a comment by Alain: `Frivolity is a violent state.'
Perhaps I could still have made her happy if I had accepted her as she had become and if I had given myself without reserve to the task of reconciling her to life. I believed that I was full of good intentions; I wanted with all my heart to sacrifice my desires to hers; I granted her everything she asked: a fine apartment at Neuilly, a visit to Deauville, trips, countless presents, but it was all done in a way that made each gift a concession and a reproach. I would say to her:
`All right, but why don't you help my mother instead~ There are so many unfortunate people since the war! . . . Why don't you interest yourself as she has done in theWards of the Nation? . . . Why drag me to Deauville when I could stay here and work on a book?'
When I re-read, with greater maturity of mind, Claudel's plays and in particular L'Otage, which gives such a clear statement of the doctrine of total sacrifice, I understood too late what had warped our reunion after the conflict. In order to win back Janine I was ready to make any concrete sacrifices but not the intellectual sacrifice that would have consisted, I repeat, in accepting her as she was. The pleasures of the artist which I had commenced to taste now attracted me more strongly than those of love. The writer's egoism, more concerned with his. work than with the people who surround him, that strange combination of maternal solicitude and paternal ambition, grew visibly in me. Our household, so peaceful in appearance beneath the beautiful lime trees of La Saussaye, suffered from it.

This egoism became all the more exacting inasmuch as I was at that time discontented with my efforts to write. Les Silences, with its wide success, had proved to me that I could write a book and find readers. And so while I was still living at Abbeville I had begun a second novel. From the time of my first visits to Oxford I had been thinking with eager interest

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