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THE TECHNICIAN WRITES ME

Or again: `Suppressed desire is a poison. If you want to see naked women, go to a brothel.' I believe he thought me dangerously inclined to romantic excesses, for he commended cynicism to me. When I read SainteBeuve's Volupte, I recognized myself in the hero who is passionately in love with an unattainable woman and, on leaving her company, goes to explore the disreputable quarters of Paris. In the evenings in Elbeuf I would silently admire the respectable young matrons and write them verses which I would not show them; Saturday evening I would go to Rouen and, with the help of an usher, make a rendezvous with one of the little dancers at the Folies Bergere. These girls of easy virtue would give me a good supper, lodging and the rest. Then, since I was always a pedant, I would talk to these poor creatures about what I had been reading and about my scruples, and I would bore them to tears.
Later on, when I observed in America the freedom enjoyed by the young men and girls at the universities, and when I realized the charm imparted to the first blossoming of love by a certain equality in culture, I regretted bitterly the mediocrity and venality of the first women with whom I had been able to consort freely. In our small provincial cities at that time girls were so rigidly guarded and early marriages so cruelly discouraged that a young man found himself forced willy-nilly to turn to the professionals. It was a sorry introduction to love and life. Body and soul acquired dangerous habits. When the soul could not find passions that would answer to its own, it became bitter and cynical. The body grew accustomed to dissociating desire and admiration. Some even reached a point where they would feel desire only for women they despised. All this was unhealthy, and dreadfully disillusioning.
In i9o6 the People's University at Rouen, where Alain had formerly reigned, asked me to deliver a lecture. I accepted, and discovered to my great surprise that I entered into immediate contact with the audience. Silent enough in everyday life, I felt no fear whatever once I was on a platform. The multiplicity of those present constituted a solitude. I talked aloud to myself and people listened. These lectures in Rouen brought me back to serious work, for they required preparation. Their success was some comfort to my wounded spirit. On the other hand, when I tried to make a speech at the People's University at Elbeuf, I was astonished to find myself attacked for the first time in my life in the local socialist paper: `Let the workers beware,' said the article, `of this young

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